It was my first run of the parkrun week tonight (its here, its here!). I did 2 miles as planned.
Now, there is one thing I need to remind myself of…
This is my first 5k with type 1 diabetes, and it is okay to go slow.
Tonight was the first time I started to think about speed. And I know that is a bad way to go at this stage. I have to keep thinking back to when I ran a marathon 2 years ago, and remember that when you are doing something for the first time all that matters is you finish.
The book ‘The Non-Runner’s Marathon Trainer’ (non-affiliate link) is something I’d recommend anyone starting to run to have a look at – whether or not they care in the slightest about ever running a marathon. It was a vital read for me back then to actually believe it was possible for me to run 26 miles… but just as importantly some of the lessons from that book still resonate with me today, even more so now I’m running with type 1 diabetes (the book is worth writing a future post on – but for now go slowly is the lesson worth mentioning).
If you’ve been reading the blog so far then you will have seen me talk about not beating yourself up. (Possibly even screaming at your computer screen begging me not to mention it again, while also thinking its awfully ironic that me repeating that mantra is making you want to beat me up)
So, yes, I’m probably going to have to remind myself before and on Saturday to go slowly, but I’m not going to tell myself off for having the urge to run quicker. It is a bit of a shock to the system having to plan out so much just for a little jog nowadays; before diabetes I never would have foreseen myself being as scared of exercise as I was for the time between diagnosis and starting to occasionally jog a couple of months ago.
Every now and again I find myself thinking, ‘Its only 5k, stop building it up to be an achievement’. But you know what? Its ok to have these thoughts, as long as you realise and go back to the positives.
Keep fighting the ego and you’ll be okay.
Disclaimer – It is essential that you do not take on board any advice given on this website without first seeking the advice of a medical professional. Any descriptions of different ways in which I manage my type 1 diabetes on this website, including in the comments, are given in good faith, and are shared merely as suggestions which should be ran past a doctor or diabetes specialist nurse.